4 Year Old Preschool for Chloe

Chloe.  I just ran outside to snap this picture of you with your summer bleached hair and big beautiful brown eyes.  It is important to me because it tomorrow you embark on your new preschool year.  As you sit there and swing, eating your first ever Fun Dip, I am sitting here at the computer crying big crocodile tears. The sadness from missing you is already starting and I have until Wednesday morning for it all to happen for real.I could blame it on this pregnancy but I think it is my true and honest feelings about how fast you have grown up.  I feel as though my time is up and I have to let you go so soon.  

Now you are sitting on my lap eating the pepperoni I picked off my pizza from lunch.  Ryan and I are going to be lost for a few days while you are at school.  You, on the other hand won't notice a thing.  You will be skipping around class instead of skipping down our hallway.  You will be singing endless songs to your friends instead of us.  Playing games, pretending, learning, smiling, growing and I am going to be missing it.  This part of being a mom is the hardest! 

Four days a week.  Three hours a day.  How did I ever think this would be a good thing?!?  But, you are so ready.  You have that late birthday that cut you off from kindergarten this year.  You would have been ready this year, but selfishly I am so happy you don't go.  It means one more year with you as my sidekick.  My best helper.   My best little friend.
 
So my little Chloe Jane, go and have an incredible year.  Love your new teachers.  Love your new friends.  I will be so happy to see you everyday you come home.  We will still have our Fridays to pretend life is as it is now.  Please let this year go slowly by so Kindergarten won't come as fast as I know it will.  And then there is 1st grade...I am dreading that even more!  Tomorrow I promise to have big smiles for you, but my heart might be crying inside.  

I love you, pickle!  Have a fantastic year!